But you haven't given up on trying to help, and that's what matters. You're still trying to do good and to help people. That will always be better than doing nothing, in my opinion.
Is it? I thought perhaps . . . as I have more insight than anyone how impossible it is to refuse the angels, I ought to be ruthless in the way others can't be.
But all that resulted in was Nanaly being accused.
I don't think it's wrong to try to find truth where you can, though. Like it or not, she was one of the people the evidence was pointing you to. You followed what was before you, like anyone should.
If there was more time, then she could have been saved. I'm sure of it.
We have all of those truth abilities, but we were too slow. I'm still. . . I believe if Sir Rochalizo had been responsible, he would have willingly done something to show me his hand. So I cannot think he was, but I can only wonder what it means.
All possibilities, but unfortunately, I can't give you much more guidance. [ stupid dust rules. ] Even if evidence is planted, it may not change the results you get from the items... you saw that last week. So where do you think you can go from here?
. . . The truth is, it feels to me that if death is not inevitable, at the least catching the correct culprit does quite little to prevent it.
I had wondered if I even ought to participate. I am sure Nanaly will go to wherever shades gather and think me rather monstrous for participating as I did.
But . . . it is a cruel fate, to be condemned for a crime you did not commit, and a cruel fate to have to live in secret with the ones you did. If I can spare someone from either, that at least feels worthwhile.
[ they'll give her hands a gentle squeeze at that. ]
Thinking that way... I don't know if you'll agree, but I believe it's very heroic of you. Wanting to help people in any way that you can, to save people from a horrible fate - you are still a good person.
[She allows her hands to be squeezed, but glances away.]
I understand what you are saying, and maybe I had such intentions at one point, but to me now it feels more a matter of duty. [. . .] I didn't choose this, and I know in my heart I would not blame another who had been put in the same situation, but - there were parts of what happen, at least, that were all only my doing and those parts in some way caused the greatest damage. No angel forced me to take myself hostage or to frame Mr. Turner.
There is a duty to put things right when one has made a mess of things.
[. . .]
I wonder if there is a way I can find out more about this angel. Mr. Turner said they met an angel of dust in the place they were taken, but that they were helped by the angel. The angel, Raguel, spoke of a conflict between the Authority and Xaphania. Do you know anything of this?
They may not have forced your methods, but they influenced you enough that I wouldn't hold you personally responsible for it. You're trying to make good with what you can, now, and I think that says more than anything.
[ but they understand, and won't press.
...and for the better, as they go still at hearing those names. ]
I... don't know how much I'll be able to say, without being turned to Dust. But those are the ones that we, Celestials and Temporals, were recruited for.
. . . I think that goes without saying for me. But I suppose that distracts from the question of whether they are acting on some orders, or whether they have gone rogue in some fashion. What do they really mean to achieve? My killing Rex . . . it didn't accomplish any goals it could have had. The only Temporal I knew at the time was Lord van Zieks and I couldn't manage to. . .
Maybe they're unable to tell you who to target, just like we can't tell you who's on which team. That would mean that they have to take a gamble in forcing someone to act in order to try to win.
Each side has many angels like that. Without meeting them myself, I don't know if we can confirm for sure that those of you on our side would see the same one, but the Temporals have most certainly met with different angels.
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All I want is to do something that helps. But no matter what I do, nothing seems to . . .
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But all that resulted in was Nanaly being accused.
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If there was more time, then she could have been saved. I'm sure of it.
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We have all of those truth abilities, but we were too slow. I'm still. . . I believe if Sir Rochalizo had been responsible, he would have willingly done something to show me his hand. So I cannot think he was, but I can only wonder what it means.
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[ but she's right, it's been taking too long to narrow it down. ]
So what do you think that means, Susato?
[ if nanaly is proven innocent, and she's so certain that rochalizo is innocent. ]
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[But it all feels slightly out of grasp.]
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All possibilities, but unfortunately, I can't give you much more guidance. [ stupid dust rules. ] Even if evidence is planted, it may not change the results you get from the items... you saw that last week. So where do you think you can go from here?
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I had wondered if I even ought to participate. I am sure Nanaly will go to wherever shades gather and think me rather monstrous for participating as I did.
But . . . it is a cruel fate, to be condemned for a crime you did not commit, and a cruel fate to have to live in secret with the ones you did. If I can spare someone from either, that at least feels worthwhile.
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Thinking that way... I don't know if you'll agree, but I believe it's very heroic of you. Wanting to help people in any way that you can, to save people from a horrible fate - you are still a good person.
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I understand what you are saying, and maybe I had such intentions at one point, but to me now it feels more a matter of duty. [. . .] I didn't choose this, and I know in my heart I would not blame another who had been put in the same situation, but - there were parts of what happen, at least, that were all only my doing and those parts in some way caused the greatest damage. No angel forced me to take myself hostage or to frame Mr. Turner.
There is a duty to put things right when one has made a mess of things.
[. . .]
I wonder if there is a way I can find out more about this angel. Mr. Turner said they met an angel of dust in the place they were taken, but that they were helped by the angel. The angel, Raguel, spoke of a conflict between the Authority and Xaphania. Do you know anything of this?
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[ but they understand, and won't press.
...and for the better, as they go still at hearing those names. ]
I... don't know how much I'll be able to say, without being turned to Dust. But those are the ones that we, Celestials and Temporals, were recruited for.
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[But she nods.]
I thought so. Temporals are the Authority and you may have been recruited by Xaphania. [. . .] Do you know of Raguel?
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I don't, but they don't always give us their names. It's possible that we could have met them without realizing...?
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Um. . . the note Mr. Escardos received talked about some sort of experiment. Eradicating gold to see if it results in the destruction of a subject.